Anonymous asked: do you ever feel like time isn't passing and you're the same? i stopped doing everything (and i mean EVERYTHING) when i was 17 and now i'm 20 and that seems like a big age gap, a lot happens in a person's life during that time but i'm the same person (not in a good way) i didn't change at all i feel like i don't exist
Okay I’m stuck waiting forever at a bus stop cos there’s a tube strike so I’m gonna answer this incoherently on my phone whilst the man next to me gets all pissy about it.
SO. First off I can highly relate to this. I totally took myself off the radar when I was 16/17 and it’s taken about 4 years to claim even some semblance of a life back. It’s horrible to feel as if everyone else around you is having all these experiences and you’re just on the edge living this shitty subsistence. But “everyone else” is a loaded term because there is no “everyone else”. I promise you there are heaps of young people whose lives have also been interrupted and turned to shit and left them feeling stagnant. So, know that you’re not alone. Comparison to others is somewhat inevitable, I still do it and do my own head in thinking I’m getting nowhere. But try and remember you are on your own agenda; personal change happens for different people at different times at different rates and that is OKAY, that is good. It can also be very hard to perceive growth/change in yourself from a purely subjective standpoint, so talk it over with others if that’s possible, it can help to take a step back.
Anyway I’m gonna shut up now, a bus came and it’s stuck in Kings Cross, packed as balls and a thousand degrees and everyone is sweating tears and a woman is singing along to yellow by Coldplay. I may die here but if I make it home I’m gonna buy a twix and eat it in the bath. Take care xox
- My thoughts before anything: maybe if i wasn't ugly